tasehat je

stiLl not sO heaLthy.. cough and flu go and fro, yet i got lots of things to do.. i feel something that lack.. something that i want to feel but i couldn't. Let time tell...

bon voyaGe

please understand
this isn't just goodbye
this is "I can't stand you"
this is where the road crashed into the ocean
it rises all around me
and now we're barely breathing
a thousand faces will choose to ignore

curse my enemies for ever
let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
lhis desperation leaves me overjoyed
with fading lights that lead us pass the lives that we destroyed

i listen to you cry
i cry for less attention
but both my hands are tied
and I'm pushed into the deep end
i listen to you talk, but talk is cheap
my mouth is filled with blood from trying not to speak
so search for an excuse, and someone to believe you
and for interesting moves I'm empty with the need to

curse my enemies for ever
let's slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful
this desperation leaves me overjoyed
with fading lights that lead us pass the lives that we destroyed

please understand, this isn't just goodbye
this is "I can't stand you"

all of a sudden

my throat stings as if theres loads of gravel in it, its pain everywhere and most of its centers on my head. Headache's are routine. All my taste buds dies, every parts are numb. I cant endure the this flowin' mucus plus it comes with great cough. Great.. I got a fever, and tomorrow there is an Internet Marketing Test and i aint read nothing. Bless...

"*"*"*"*"*back to the basic"*"*"*"*"*

im suppose to clean my room now. But then, im too friggin lazy to do it. For this past 2 weeks, im facing one hella phase of my life. Too much happened in too short period. Im experiencing true face of human being- grudge, hypocrite, lies and other not so good attributes that are not suppose to be inside of a mammalians called homo sapiens. (as homo sapiens means "wise man or knowing man" (including woman as well))
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Anyway, fuck it. What my trough attention rite now is to focus for whats best. My life, and to people that i really care. So.. its time for rehab. Everything has to be selected and being build from scratch, choosing the right color and carefully paint it to the precious canvas.

Im grateful and im truly enormously thankful for her.. as much as of her patience, i will seriously make it worth.

sluts always be sluts

i just realize i waste almost 3 years of my life. Everything is bullshit. All the tears is just fake. Its deceiving. Making things worst, i made the biggest mistake in my life for knowing u. one thing i wonder is.. u can give a free fuck for a beginner's guitar lesson, its just amaze me.. much than that it make me sick with all your fucking words, words of lie, all your fucking promise plus your fucking pathetic tears.
You make me weak.. u make me sick.. more than that u disgust me..

may u rot in hell