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its past.. something that already happen, something that i cant change, something that i cant alter. I guess thats why we have past tense, old school, thats why we have antique, thats why we have old, and thats why we have memories.
Damn sure i cant change what i've already done. But i have to extremely be fuckin friggin sure that im gonna learn. Learn and bounce back to make every thing's good. Good to me, to people Im gonna face in the future and people in the past.
Im trying to make every moment of my life as exquisite as it is.

--pagi yang gelap kini sudah terang-- :)

thats it

i guess.. thats it.. it just ends.. some 2 years and 3 month something..
how i feel? i don't know. I just don't know...

the 'thing'

teh o suam.. barli suam.. iced longan.. kuey teow kungfu.. cheese.. strawvberri.. hot chocolate.. roxy.. wedges- no high heels.. white-black-red-green.. psycho thriller cum horror muvie.. 5 hours sleep.. VolksWagen.. vintage.. burung 'kuik-kuik'.. clear glass (kalau nak tinted- baik bwat opis)

Its amazing what this 'thing' can do to you.. to human being.. either it can makes your head straight up high or bow down and feeling gloomy. This 'thing' excites human brain and cause so many things, Studies have shown that mental scans of those in this 'thing' show a striking resemblance to those with a mental illness. The 'thing' creates activity in the same area of the brain that hunger, thirst, and drug cravings create activity in. therefore, could possibly be more physical than emotional (though drawing a clear line between physical and emotional is difficult when discussing the brain). This thing can be so dangerous if its not carefully handle. People suffer, people dies in the process.

What concerns me is.. right now i'm high with this thing

have u ever seen the rain

someone told me long ago
here's a calm before the Storm
i know
it's been coming for some time
when it's over so they say
it'll rAin on a sunnY day
i know
shining down like watEr

i wanna know
have you eveR seEn the rain?
i wanNa know
have you ever seen the rain?

coming Down on a sUnny day
yesterday and days before
sun is Cold and rain is hard
i know
t's been that way for all my time
till forever on It goes
through the circle fast and slow
i Know
and it can't stop i wonder

i wanna know
have you ever seen the rain?
i wanna know
have you ever seen the rain?

nothing...