happy?

am i happy? how happy is happy?
theres one gal said.. happy is measured by your satisfaction..
if thats the case.. of course im not happy..

theres no right or wRong...

paRents will alwaYs be paRents...
what matters is, do they really understand their family
or..
does that really matters..
what matters is, what are the impression from other people about their image
or..
does that really matters..
what matter is, their children have to be better that any children else aside from theirs
or..
does that really matters..
what matters is, when other people words are much more important, even worse much more reliable than their own children..
or does that really matters..

shyte~! i guess even i don't know what really matters

in detail

aaah.. lemme think.. where should i start.. aight, last week - Sunday 10th june, got a call from nippon ask me to lookout for my friends (names that dont want to be mention) , i dont think much at that time.. as soon as i arrived (lendu melaka) im shocked when one of my friend told me that my other friends in lockup.. kinda confusing,, ok lemme put it this way, nippon ask me to look out for my friends (later called as A and B) so, back to the story, it happens that A and B is in lockup, Alor Gajah Police Station..

One of the guilty parties or should i say convict manage to escape (later called as C) so, eventually C is in Kl rite now, work his ass for money to settle the goddamn case, (pity him) what make things interesting is, im the only one who knows where C is, makes me feel guilty for not telling it to my other friend which is A and B, but by telling them make myself guilty as well, Yes, it is what we called betrayal.

So, i made a decission for not telling them and let they settle it themselves. -kapish

then.. last friday 15th june, i got my result and its quite okay, even though its not as i hope to get, but its okay,, as rashid said "at least u have buid a base" then.. i went back home
it was raining, - lets cut the chase, i had an accident, nearly lost my life. The car is badly damaged, but thank got it still can be drived.

arrived at home, im done~! bombared with missiles and motars from my dad and my mom. Not enough from that, things gone bad. When some motherfucker opens my document and found some of my picture - told my mom. i had a fight with my mom.. Things gone worse...

now i know why people said. bad things comes in threes... and somtimes comes in small package - in my case, it comes in two but in big package...
--im done--

hepi ever after?

just get back from my friends wedding.. got a chance to met my long lost schoolmate.. nothing changed... when we all met we'll talked all the old memoirs, bubblin n laughing while insulting each others.. quite fun but literally annoying.. enuf for old shit. the thing that actually shocked my sock is,,.. marriage.. it makes u realize gods power.. destiny and all the "jodoh di tangan tuhan kinda thing" at 1st i thought my friends bride is actually his gf that i met last year,, which is a no no.. it happens that he married another gal.. and because of that i realize all the couple thinggy sometimes last until 5 years doesnt mean a thing if its not ur "jodoh".. kinda awful to say this but actually im afraid of marriage and god knows i dont wanna talk about it.. but when u saw every each of ur friends got this newly wed thinggy... it kinda shock my nerve.. the more i avoid thinkin 'bout this,, the more n much more it'll come.,, shit..
marriage is a whole life time commitment... god knows im still not ready for it..

leAve

its time for me to depart.. after one year woRkin in maRcus eVans.. im back to school again,
continue my studies.. it happens that i have to studied in UiTM Malacca ..- bummer~
but then its hard to say goodbye.. not only goodbye.. its hard to say that i have to move..
to explain to people WHY i had to leave.. some think that i just dont give a damn.. i just dont care..
but the fact is.. i DO care.. i SERIOUSLY care.. its like im trapped in a cubicle..
in a situation which i dunno how to explain.. i have to think 'bout my future.. my whole life..

a la memoria de maRcus eVans

some joke..

One day Lee Kwan Yew went to Thailand and had lobster at the dinner with
the Thai King. After Lee finished, he asked the King.

Lee : Your Highness, what can you do with this lobster shell?

King : We cannot do anything with it, we just throw away.

Lee : Oh, no. In our country, we send it to the factory and
produce some prawn cracker.

Then Lee had an orange. After he finished, he asked the King.

Lee : What can you do with the orange skin?

King : We cannot do anything. We just throw away.

Lee : Oh, no. In Singapore, we send it to the factory and produce some
orange jam.

Then Lee asked for some chewing gum. After he finished, he put on the
plate and asked the King.

Lee : What can you do with the chewing gum?

King : Oh, no. We just throw it away.

Lee : In Singapore, we send it to the factory and produce condoms send
it to Thailand.

Lee said good-bye to the King and the King asked Lee.

King : What can you do with the condom when you finish using it?

Lee : We cannot do anything. We throw it away.

King : In Thailand when we finish using the condom, we send it to the
factory to produce chewing gum and send it back to

Singapore!!!

oNe daY b4 haRi raYA...

4.15 am.. still maKin ketupat..

6.15 .. sleeP !~~Zzzzzzzz

ZZZZZZZZzzz

waKE up.... (sLEPeY~yawN)

12.30 pm... repaIr this sIlly dOOr

1.30... repaIr thIs mIghty biKE

3.30pm keTupaT alreaDy cOOked .. ~! nyUm nYum~!

maY this be the nicesT hari raYa ever.. haPPy haRi raya and maAf zaHir baTin dari hujung ramBut hingga hujung jaRi kaKi...

keTupaT yaNg maNyak...

kejap laGi nak reBus.. tapi manYAk laGi taK siap nih... T_T

noThin

soMetime i feel lost.. felt like drowning... i've no one to reLy on.. when it comes to a point ur own blood betrays u.. it pushed u even more.. it droWns u.. i dun even knoe whut i want.,, im 24 and still im losT.. yes i hev job.. a nice wonderfUl faMily.. n a wHole lOt friends..but still i feEl like emPty.. i wan mOre i guess.. (greedy uh?) agaIn.. i hev job.. but a Job that heV no fUture.. it stiLL dark.. im drOwning.. drOwning... - guess im jusT wasTin ma fucKin time tYping this.. babi pUnye isaM~! hwahwahwa..

worK~kerJa~

aah.. all work and no play make jack's a dull boy..

xcidenT

just the sake of updating my blg.. last 2 days night.. i had an accident.. i knocked a driving school car.. (funny ey?) i bumped to his car and his car knocked the other kia rio infront.. i dunno whuts wrong with me.. im not drinking while driving.. i mean.. its just like dreaming.. i took a glance on my right side.. n then when i look again.. my car was already too close to the car infront.. it happens at 8.15pm - 8/8/06
thank god this uncle driving the drving school kancil was kind and sempoi.. but this melayu guy and his wife was damn arrogant.. bastard~!
her wife was like "ape nie? sape nak settle nie?" for god sake.. u only had a scratch on your bumper~!!! daa.. u can polish it and everything will gone away stewpid~!!
but then.. i try to cool myself down.. gave my phone no. and ask them to make a police report..
YES its my fault.. but u dun have to shout at me stupid~!! thanks for the uncle who back me up.. - i thought,,, malay is more polite compare to other races.. but.. im wrong...
this uncle is very cooll.. cooler than ice cube.. ehehe.. he was like "tapa punya.. tada hai punya.. ini kereta boley claim insurance.. orang semua tada papa.. apa maw kechow.. kasi buat repot suda la..."
yeah men.. thats it.. even we argue untill the next morning oso.. the car cant fixed by itself...
n then i went to police station at petaling street... make a report.. got summon ticket..
the next day.. called my uncle, he came and showed me the workshop..n sent my car there...
thats it.. cant even shopping these month.. so much for sale extravaganza.. bummer... T_T

nothiN much

thank god 2day is fridaY.. yey.. the department is planning to playing futsal.. oo.. correction my collegue is planning to play fUtsal 2morrow.. in fact they aledi book the plaCe.. at PJ.. its a nice place.. but it'll be betTer this time.. coz we hev 14 player.. (thank gOD) compaRe to lasT time.. we onIy hev 10 player.. - no subs.. T_T..
caNt wait 2 plaY.. cant wait to see how gewD this new guys plaYin (chewahh.. cam aku bagos).. this is bcz.. just now.. this cool wannabe dude.. keep saying is gewd la.. chinese playing like this la.. indian like this la.. macam bagos je..
so.. 2morrow morning.. hev to wake up frIgin eaRly.. amik neil.. then go to kelaNa jaya lrt station.... ryan's waiting for us there..

Here is the list of confirmed players
Neil -team captain-
Edmund -3rd teamer-
Aizuddin -tried and tested, just passed the average point-
Khairil -new signing, promising-
Fairul -untried, but promising-
Juan -untried, but promising-
Anna -Power puff Girl-
Ally -Power puff Girl-
Jerry -untried, unpromising-
Kin Mun -Nesta-
Justine -Power puff Girl-
Tamera -Power puff Girl-
Ryan -Fatnaldo-
Sam Hooi -untried, must regain fitness-
Dillion -Silent Killer-
Chan Tat Cheong -Crouchy-

P.S: There will be a match between guys and girls. So guys be prepared to lose if you wanna get on the good side of girls.

(coppied from ryan'mail.. macam bagus)
___

liFe fuLl wiTh greeN..

woke uP earLy this morNing.. (evEn thoUgh i sleep late lasT nite) thanx to the crappy laNdlord.. keep bUgging me with miscall asKin for the room reNt.. cHeH..

phUa cHu kanG

Chu Kang ( PCK ) explaining sex to Chu Beng's son, Aloysius .....

Aloy : Why is making love so enjoyable ?

PCK : Aiyah, ah boy, enjoyable because, same like when you dig your nose with your finger mah !

Aloy : Do you think women enjoy sex more than men ?

PCK : Of course lah ! When you dig dig your nose, your nose feel better than your finger, right?

Aloy : Why do women hate it when they get raped ?

PCK : Ai-yah ! Say, you walk along the load, then someone come over and dig your nose, you like or not? Ehhh! Don't play play ah!

Aloy : Why is it a woman cannot have sex when she is having her menses?

PCK : Oy !! If your nose bleeding, you still go and dig meh?? Siow ah ! Use your brain, use your brainnn .........

Aloy : Why is it most men don't like wearing condoms when they are making love ?

PCK : Ehhhh, when you dig your nose ah, you like to dig with a glove on your finger or not ? Not the same shiok feeling mah. Correct or not?

Aloy : Why is it a woman cannot have sex when she is having her menses?

PCK : Oy !! If your nose bleeding, you still go and dig meh?? Siow ah ! Use your brain, use your brainnn .........

Aloy : Why is it most men don't like wearing condoms when they are making love ?

PCK : Ehhhh, when you dig your nose ah, you like to dig with a glove on your finger or not ? Not the same shiok feeling mah. Correct or not?

PCK : Aiyah ...... ," Best in Singapore, JB, some say Batam, and now, the whole world!" also ah!!!

finaLly

yeaH.. its thursdaY finaLly.. wan 2 balik kaMpung after this.. but the best part is.. i jusT noticed thaT my roaD tax aledi expired 5th may 2006...shyte.. hev to abLik kampung with exPired roaD tax.. hope nothin haPpen..

the sky lOoks cloudy.. im hoPin for a bright sunlight.. just please dun rain.. im gOing baCk tHis eveNing T_T


anYway,, 2daY is aFida lasT day at this cOmpany... we were haVin a nice LuncH.. wIthout inviting my manager.. (hahahah) buT then sOmehow she kNew 'bOut it.. the she actualLy caMe to hOt mama.. for like 10 to 15 minUtes havin driNk i guess.. just to sPy oN us.. whut ta FucK? is she's a manaGer or baby sItter?
aiyya,,, laNtak aa.. jaNji akU baLik kaMpUng aRi ni.. taKe a nice sleep wIth a Nice sound fRom mY bOombOx.. yeye..

bile nak baLik?

laGi aa menganTuk.. ma manager is half day 2day.. like that aa.. so easy.. u can take a leave or whuteva leave u wan.. anyway.. its raining cats and dogs now.. hope it'Ll end beFor 5.30.. i wanna go hOme.. so tired..
im thinking on watching mOvie 2nite.. TGV klcc proBabLy.. she's the maN..

so slEepy

aaah.. so sleepy.. its 10.11 a.m..
i just got 27 contaCt.. so much for finding coNtact.. maNn.. god kNoes i dun want to do this 4 the entire of ma life.. this morning i had naSi lemaK lauk paRu as breaKfasT.. damn im so full plus sleepy :0 .. by the way.. i hev new cOmers working on my region nOw.. i dunno whut happen.. but it seeMs they are so terrOr oo.,. why? coz.. they never ask me about anythin regarding the job.. so proud i guess.... dunnO whuts wrong with their stucked uP attitude.. naah.. nevermind.. hope for their best in their jOb..
i just give jheng some info 'bout nestle job vacancy.. seems hes interested.. thanx to myspace and dell..
hmm.. cant wait until thursday.. wanna go home.. relax,,, hev a quality time,, (quality sleep kOt)..ok.. got to work..
kerja lagie ? T_T

so much fOr work

so mucH of havin a work.. it comes to a point when u need a wOrk.. u need to find a job.. of coz.. to earn money u must hev job.. but whuts the poInt havin a job doesnt suits ur Life.. im not goin to be kinda chOosie person.. but yes.. im choosIe anyway (whut the heck@!?)

my point is.. yes.. i hev a work.. but then i also hev this so called fucked up manager.. havin a manager whO dunno how to facilitate the emPloyees is worse.. worse? definition as in worse.. hmm.. let me think,, ok.. one persOn alreadY resign becoz something silly.. one person being accuse of some so called sOb stories.. so.. whut kind of manager is this..
manager description :
busuk hati...
liar...
bad time management..
so stewpid..
taK sedaR diri..
bodoh sombong..
and many more..
thats it..
even now..
im in the office..
if she look at this.. as in im typin for this blog.. she dun even know.. whut the heck that im doing now..
all she care is.. herself..
u boott licker her.. then u got promotion..
promotion.. aa promotion.. dun think 'bout any promotion when u working in this sucked up department..
...
aaaa... hev to find another job..
god help me ...

1sT time

weLcome to the blog world.. hoho.. i dunno how long i'll continuously bLogging.. but ill try.. dunno whut is so interesting 'bout blogging.. but maybe u can say anything u want.. probably yes..anyway...

ok.. thats a start ..
i continue later.. hev to go for a ciggar break ..
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